Remembrance            by: Frank Wirth Jr.

Alfred Lord Tennyson once said:
It is better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all

A friend once said:
It is harder to have loved and lost
Than to have lost a love for life

I have committed the most infamous crime anyone could have committed.
That is to take ones love for me and throw it out the window.

My punishment is to live in emotional anguish, thinking of the way it could
have been, knowing that my poor actions in my once blissful relationship
have lead me to the sadness that now has overtaken me.

I don’t look forward to doing anything. The things that I do sadden me.
Having the feeling that someone out there cares and loves me has been
taken away by my own selfish actions is the most pathetic feeling in the
world.

For years I have awaited this one, the person that will complete me, the
one that I can say “I love you” to and always hear it back.

It is terrible the way that I feel right now. My tears run dry from the hours
of immense pain and yearning for this love that I have taken away from me.

Why? I keep asking myself, waiting for a reasonable answer, any answer.
Why did I do this to myself as well as the one I love, I still talk to her. I put
on fake acts almost every time I talk to her to keep myself from turning into
an emotional ball of pathetic sorrow, just to be sure that she will be all right.

One week has past, just one week. I have felt the same sadness that had fallen
over me the same instant that I have torn her away from me.

I just wish that everything will be better, be the way it used to be when we could
hold each other tight, hold hands and make passionate love.

I have a feeling that it won’t be better, I can’t hold her, touch her or be with her.
This is the melancholy the overwhelming emptiness that lies within my heart. This
is what I have done to myself; I have taken true love for granted.

Out of all the things that I may wish for in my lifetime may it be money, women, or
fame. For one to come true this is the one, for anyone out there take your love hold
it tight and never let it go no matter what. I never wish the pain that I feel right now
on anyone.

I do not ask for pity, I do not ask for sympathy, I simply ask for love to come over
me once again.

Love doesn’t hate
Love doesn’t get jealous
Love doesn’t ask why
Love loves all
Love never fails

So…. Mr. Tennyson;
If it is better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all

I ask you, how strong was your love.

Not as strong as my love for Amanda.
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