I Feel Betrayed  by Kristin Williams 

I feel betrayed.
Almost defeated.
I think I'm bleeding.

The only reason you talk to me is because of her.
As long as you find your way here, I am nonexistent.

I thought we were friends.
But in ways we're nothing more than people who have common classes.

You disgust me and I don't even want to be associated anymore.
I don't want to hate myself anymore.
Doubt myself.

She takes it every single time.
Takes everything.
Takes my friends.

Who will I talk to now that I can't trust you with my heart?
I hate you.

You betrayed me,
Shut me out and left me outside in the cold.

It's amazing how much better she is than me.
I may have the grades, the chance of college.
But she'll always have what I want.

I'm nothing compared to her.
I'm nothing compared to anyone.

I wonder what would happen if I died.
Right now.

Would you mourn?
Probably not.
Because,
Of course,
You'd still have my sister to laugh with.

The social butterfly sibling I could never compare to.
Grades and writing letters could never replace a smile that everyone loves.

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