Poems by Natalie Rose
Lost
The unspoken words,
The obvious never shows,
And if it does then it’s hidden,
In places where nobody goes.
In the shadows of memories,
In the broken glass of pain,
Hidden behind a lie or two,
Sealed over by vain.
But I know they still stay there,
Trying not to exist,
All the clues that weren’t given,
All the signs that we missed.
Why does it have to end this way,
Why can’t I change it tall,
Why can’t we stay up here and fly,
Why did we have to fall?
Why do I always ruin things,
No matter how hard I try,
I just don’t want to live no more,
I just want to die.
Life without you is getting dull,
But I can’t change a thing,
There was never a "forever",
There was never a promise ring.
Here’s where our paths go parallel,
And I fear they’ll never cross,
I’ve tried to convince myself that I’m fine,
But without you I am lost.
Nobody
Nobody really knows me,
Nobody ever tries,
They can't get past the way I dress,
Nor my forlorn brown eyes.
They think they've figured me all out,
They think they're under my skin,
But you can't wrench a thing from me,
I'll never let anyone in.
I've tried so hard to smile,
To crawl out of my shell,
But what's the point of coming out,
When the world ins't the swell.
So much weight I drag around,
SO much heartache an pain,
I've tried so hard to let it all go,
But then it turns to vain.
I wish somebody would save me,
To make this pain go away,
But people never stay close to me,
They always fly away.
Why
I haven’t
pondered this thought for awhile now,
What caused me to reopen this cut,
And bleed out every tear that I
thought I had held back,
I will never know.
Maybe it was the way I heard this
song,
They way I caught your scent in a
crowded memory,
They way your face flooded my mind so
suddenly,
It knocked me off of my feet.
So where is your hand to help me up?
It’s obviously not here,
It never was here.
Why couldn’t I see that?
Why didn’t I let go,
Fall back into everything and nothing
and all we had,
Or so I thought we had.
It hurts to make confessions and have
no one care,
It’s pointless for me to do
this,
To send an unaddressed letter,
To an unwritten person,
With an unwritten cause,
With my unwanted love sealed in.
Maybe you’ll find this poem,
And read it,
And suddenly fall in love with me.
But who am I kidding,
Even if you did find this,
You wouldn’t recognize my name,
You wouldn’t recognize that
it’s for you,
You don’t know me,
You don’t know what I’ve
held close to my heart,
A secret that you know but have
forgotten,
Like everything else I said and did.
I don’t know why I decided to
write this,
I thought I was over you,
I
guess I thought wrong.
Another Poem
Metallic taste of bitter words that
you spat at me,
The into the darkness I plunge,
Face first I’m landing into the bleakness, alone,
Hidden behind blood shot eyes,
Staring at the florescent lights,
Of this class room.
Remembering every think I ever felt, every card that was dealt,
Taking them into my shadow.
Lurking behind a blood stained knife,
Crying trying to save my life,
And I don’t want to do this anymore.
My chores have been finished,
This is my forgiveness,
Burn my brain on one reason why,
You say that you loved me,
Now here I’m standing,
My heart is burning up all of my emotions,
All I can feel is hate.
I tried to hold back feelings I’ve choked,
Now that I’m barren,
Empty and lonely,
You just laugh through your teeth,
You look out of the corner of your eye,
Then I ask God why,
Why did he curse me with you?
This pen is my only escape, from the life you take,
My soul is no longer mine, I’m falling out of time,
I’ve found that I can’t sleep at night, I’ve found that nothing feels right,
How much longer can I bare to live, there’s not much more I can give,
Where does this leave me?
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